well....everyones fighting. And by everyone i meen 2 people i hold dear.
so, knowing no one is probably going to read this ill just rant and if i piss you off, ill try and make this gentle, i listen to your issues when you trust me enough to tell me and ive allwasy trusted all of you regardless so i think you can spare a second no?
He is my best friend, she is a friend whom i loved for a long time and moved on and now see her as one of my best friends.
He has made great strides and im so proud of him for doing tihngs he has done recently. i just wish he would open up more i know little to nothing about his life but yet he knows a great deal of mine. odd yes but i have issues with shutting my mouth when im around those i trust.
She....well christ where to begin, i loved her because she is beautiful and smart and had knowledge far greater than my mind could comprehend at the time. now i dont know, i let her live her spiritual life i meen hell shes even inspired my way of life. but still she distrusts me, because i have lied to many a time in my life. i fixed this problem but she still finds more in me. ive moved on and now regard her as a great friend.
and myself, allways trying to stay neutral, except for dan seeing that he allways talks out of his ass but thats saved for another update.... my life is my friends, the people ive come to almost regard as a 3rd family. i hate to see them fighting or upset, and i cant help them because they dont talk to me about their issues which i guess is there own opinion and i respect that. but i hate being out of the loop and being kept in the dark. i love you all so much
youll probably never read this but whatever.
i need a latte.....and a corn muffin.....yeah thatd be good right about now.
i wish i understood what i could do to make everyone happy again, i wish people would talk to me about whats going on.
but if wishes were fishes sailors would never go hungry again.
i just made that up
yeah
...
i love you guys so much, your all beautiful and i seriously meen that i feel rather gifted to have such beautiful friends as you.
ok
im done now
bye whomever reads this.
Zak
